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oh boy

2012-02-03T00:02:00.003+08:00

x: if you're lucky, you'll never see me again

y: i hope i'm not

x: um?

y: i hope i'm not lucky

don't be silly, darling. i'm not exactly an angel, but i've never meant to be the devil's assistant.

oh the horror

2012-01-29T11:31:00.001+08:00

i'm superhuman. with very few humanity points

Dear friends,

2012-01-14T04:31:00.001+08:00

a, let's read books together!

b, we can breathe now :)

c, let's have coffee soon!

d, do you still like blueberry muffin?

f, i'm glad i found you once again :>

g, we're just 30 minutes away!

h, thank you for everything, my friend :)

i, please let me visit you there!

j, i've only met you once last year :O

k, please never stop being awesome!

l, you're the sister i've never had!

m, i miss you much!

n, hope you find yourself :)

o, thanks for putting up with me :)

r, i dreamt of you last night!

s, let's suntan together sometime :)

t, we're not 15 anymore :)

z, thank you for keeping me warm.

why is it easy?

2012-01-09T23:30:00.006+08:00

why is it so hard?

a lil prayer for you

2012-01-02T01:38:00.001+08:00

oh god,

make him strong, and wise.

it's tomorrow now

2011-12-22T23:26:00.001+08:00

x: i think you need to slow down

y: maybe you need to hurry up

x: what are you rushing for?

y: i just don't want to miss a thing

x: everything you need is in front of you

y: uh-huh

x: you just don't know it yet

x: how do you unread a book?

y: that's a very familiar question

x: you've been asked that before

y: i still don't know the answer

y: maybe i could

x: you could?

y: you know

x: i know?

y: do it

x: do what?

y: it

x: go ahead then

x: just us

y: i don't know

x: you're not ready?

y: things are crazy now

x: that's why we need it

y: can you convince me tomorrow?

x: tomorrow is here

y: i hate time difference

y: i like those

x: you can have them

ahh

2011-12-20T17:39:00.001+08:00

have you ever thought..

2011-12-18T22:07:00.002+08:00

but then,

you'd rather be a slut

than be hurt.

everything's cool

2011-11-21T05:47:00.001+08:00

everything's fine

morning air

2011-11-14T05:13:00.003+08:00

x: he just took me in

y: and you took him in as well

x: i'll find out

y: i don't really wanna know

x: it's fun to have some dramas in your life

y: not really

y: i'm fucked already. so why not?

x: why not

running in circles

2011-09-11T23:40:00.001+08:00

x: how to a afford a marchesa dress?

y: dandy

x: so fanciful and dreamy

y: where would you wear them?

x: i don't know. i don't attend balls

y: it's perfect for a wedding

x: i can't really wear that here, can i?

y: unless it's your own

x: a marchesa dress or a wedding.. decision decision

y: you could have both

x: and how is that even possible?

y: me

i almost wished..

but of course i can't even..

hallelujah

2011-09-07T12:04:00.001+08:00

so yeah

here we go

get set,

go.

and, the last one

2011-09-01T06:20:00.001+08:00

most things have expiry date.

like milk.

there are two things i know have none.

some people are too late for happiness. i am.

some are not.

clearly, you are not.

so grab it.

while it lasts.

cheers.

bullet proof... i wish i was

2011-09-01T05:51:00.001+08:00

how to feel sad:

brush teeth

drink coffee

drink tea

drink coke

drink water

drink

pray

hope

wish

think

remember

forget

breathe in

breathe out

read quran

read bible

read a letter

read what's on the cereal box

read ym's archive

read skype's archive

read anything

go fishing

go to ikea

go to the beach

go to galleries

go to gas station

go to pet shop

go to cemetery

go for a walk

go for a drive

ride a bike

look at the sky at dawn

look at the sky at dusk

look at the sky in the middle of the night

look at the sky

eat ice cream

eat grilled aubergine

eat tofu

eat tempeh

eat grilled fish

eat strawberries

eat banana leaf rice

listen to coldplay

listen to cat power

listen to the cure

listen to radiohead

listen to antony & the johnsons

listen to kings of convenience

listen to the moldy peaches

listen to the perishers

look at old photos

look at paintings

look at old notes

look at old scribblings

go for a walk

go for a drive

sit in front of the tv

watch tv

watch sunrise

watch sunset

watch anyone sleeping

visit orphanage

visit anyone with new baby

visit old folks care

visit anyone at the hospital

wear blue

wear white

wear yellow

wear anklet

wear a ring

wear vanilla flavoured lipgloss

wear peach flavoured lipgloss

sleep in till late afternoon on sunday

sleep

shower

mop the floor

vacuum the house

kiss a cat

kiss a bunny

kiss a baby

kiss a boy

kiss the rain

how to be happy:

same things i guess. except one, or two. or three.

maybe none.

maybe just, die.

i don't know.

koffiekoekies

2011-08-29T14:54:00.001+08:00

have you ever stayed in a hotel 4km away from your home? ;)

adieu

2011-08-28T02:15:00.001+08:00

not coming

but i'll be away either way

what was i thinking?

i just need to be gone

alone

away from everything

away from everyone

now i remember

2011-08-24T23:32:00.001+08:00

April 28, 2009

Day 1

Oh.

(every year i bleed on April 28 it's kind of funny)

don't you think so?

2011-08-24T01:04:00.001+08:00

x: i'm broken

y: you can't be broken unless you let it

x: i guess i let him

y: young and stupid

x: i let him hold the gun pointing towards my heart believing he won't pull the trigger

y: you're so fragile

x: i'm not dead yet

y: you are dead. you're not you anymore

x: i became this person

y: where's the aishah i used to know then?

x: she has blossomed into a little monster

y: i think she's dead

x: i guess she is

y: so how do i kill this little monster?

x: what monster?

y: you

x: why do you want to kill me?

y: i miss the old aishah

x: no, you don't

y: if i kill you, little monster, maybe aishah will come back

x: why would she come back? what for?

y: for people who love her

x: that's bribing

y: we can't run away from being hurt

x: yes we can

y: how?

x: just.. stay away from love

x: i'm right

y: you're wrong

x: i hate you

y: i love you

x: you're crazy

y: you're crazy

i see this coming

2011-08-22T06:26:00.001+08:00

eat your words, darling.

unsaid

2011-08-16T01:28:00.001+08:00

Joel: Wait.

Clementine: Why?

Joel: I don't know. Just wait… for awhile.

but we were in a rush. you would not wait. and i did not know why should you.

but i guess we can breathe now.

and

2011-08-10T17:59:00.001+08:00

i'm just

broken

beyond

repair

why?

2011-08-10T17:57:00.000+08:00

because she's your dream girl.

life 101:

2011-08-09T04:58:00.001+08:00

"don't get too attached to anything or anyone. you won't feel as bad if you lost them."

how many times?

2011-08-08T01:38:00.001+08:00

until we learn, love.

until we learn.

just because

2011-08-04T15:59:00.001+08:00

i miss the pier.

buttered toast

2011-06-05T13:31:00.001+08:00

"Time grabs you by the scruff of your neck and drags you forward. You get over it, of course. Everyone was right about that. One mathematically insignificant day, you stop hoping for happiness and become actually happy."

-Sloane Crosley

your caffeine fix

2011-05-16T14:57:00.001+08:00

I can love you in the morning

Just not all day

hot jam doughnuts

2011-05-10T13:07:00.001+08:00

x: "if you look for others for fulfillment, you will never be truly fulfilled." Lao Tzu

y: I am filled

x: that's almost funny

y: darling, i'm not looking for fulfillment. i'm just wandering.

x: then be still. be very, very still. you don't have to get uh.. filled.

y: i miss hot jam doughnuts.

x: you're different now

y: never be the same

x: you're too carefree. what if one day you get careless?

y: you know, i said wandering, not wondering.

x: i know your mind did the wandering. you don't wonder.

y: i hate you.

x: what if one day you get careless?

y: you'll die healthier. i'll die in tragic.

x: you're so stubborn

y: you're so persistent

x: i love you

y: i'll never stop

words

2011-03-21T18:34:00.001+08:00

they conceal

as much as

they reveal

scars

2011-03-17T02:43:00.001+08:00

that i wanna keep.

i hope they don't heal.

this bumpy road

2011-03-09T13:50:00.000+08:00

truth to be told, i don't mind having it. as a reminder.

seashore

2011-03-07T10:08:00.001+08:00

b: so dream, my darling

a: dreaming

b: dreams come true sometimes

a: if god allows it

b: if you believe in it

a: if you work on it

b: it will

a: i don't wash my hair

b: may god bless you

homeless

2011-03-07T09:47:00.001+08:00

people with detachable hearts. they never hold on to their own hearts at a time. it's either they're carrying their significant others' hearts who willingly gave it to them, or they have none. most of the time, they have none. even if they could have their hearts back, it's difficult to place them back where they used to be. it wouldn't fit snugly. it wouldn't fit at all sometimes. so let alone to replace it. that being so, they choose to be heartless. their hearts lingering and floating around in the air like invisible balloons. every now and then, when they sit very, very still, they could feel these balloons in mid-air staring right at them, longingly. very few other people can see it. it is perhaps by chance, or magic, for someone, to be able to reach it, and grab it and find home for these homeless hearts.

magic and chance are not the best of friends.

these hearts can only dream of going home.

ice cubes

2011-03-03T00:57:00.001+08:00

i dreamt of you too last night

what are the odds? i thought just now

i woke up feeling something too

inshaa allah

2011-03-01T01:32:00.001+08:00

No amount of guilt can change the past and no amount of worrying can change the future. Go easy on yourself, for the outcome of all affairs is determined by Allah's decree. If something is meant to go elsewhere, it will never come your way, but if it is yours by destiny, from you it cannot flee. (Umar Ibn Al-Khattab RadiyAllahu Anhu)

because i want to believe.

take my hand

2011-02-24T01:32:00.001+08:00

and if i lie to you

i will always be alone

just breathe

2011-02-22T23:24:00.001+08:00

i read books

until i can't read

i run and i run

until i can't run

i talk to walls

until the walls change color

i talk to cats and dogs

until they're bored

i write and write

until dawn

i lie still in the bathwater

until my toes shrink

i paint every pages

until i'm out of paper

everyday.

i pray, i cry.

god always makes me cry.

just thinking how small i am

makes me cry now.

but it's alright.

let there be morning.

let there be light, love.

unfurl

2011-02-22T20:32:00.001+08:00

let's just breathe for awhile.

pink peonies and pink ponies

2011-02-02T14:00:00.001+08:00

today i read about the lovers of teruel. it gave me shivers. last night i thought i was having the worse time. but it really wasn't the case. my life is just fine. isabel and diego had something that even romeo and juliet didn't. they just died, upon realizing their love couldn't, just, couldn't anymore. just "with a sigh he died." and just "with a kiss she died." i suppose when hearts couldn't bear the pain anymore, we felt as if we're going to die. but isabel and diego, their pain was absolute. and what usually happens with the rest of us when we're hurting, is just, "we're hurt," we cry, and maybe we brawl too. we don't die.

we die. of course we do. in the end, we all do.

but for the time being..

i think we had too much of processed food, and recycled ideas.

ladies and gentlemen

2011-02-01T22:40:00.001+08:00

hurting hurts.

i miss those days when i was

2011-01-29T22:50:00.000+08:00

inside

it was overwhelming

so i had to stop looking

if you only knew

2011-01-06T09:02:00.002+08:00

suicidal girlfriend and coconut at the beach.

because life is short

2010-12-31T17:14:00.001+08:00

alone in the crowd

smile

blazing hot sun

smile

craving for a melon

smile

drawing details of a leaf

smile

fantasizing death

smile

hearing rumours about yourself

smile

jet lagged, somehow

smile

learning a new trick

smile

missing you

smile

now

smile

peeing at 5 in the a.m.

smile

queuing to pay for tickets

smile

resting after a long day

smile

smile

thinking of nothing

smile

wondering if it'd rain later

smile

yearning

smile

but it's alright

2010-12-06T22:23:00.001+08:00

very

afraid

i'd

get

new

ones

soon.

do you know?

2010-12-06T21:04:00.001+08:00

the scar's gone.

baby baby baby ohhh

2010-12-06T19:10:00.001+08:00

today is someone's birthday. i wished him.

"sweet like candy. thanks baby."

i blushed.

the vast depth of the ocean

2010-11-11T00:49:00.001+08:00

is it something particular?

or just the void?

the sun also rises

2010-11-06T02:04:00.001+08:00

i hope one day you'll wake up, you wake up.

melt, and glow

2010-10-12T00:16:00.001+08:00

paper cut.

apple and salt.

a friend told me once:

2010-09-20T23:41:00.001+08:00

If God answers your prayers,

He is increasing your faith.

If He delays,

He is increasing your patience.

If He doesn't answer,

He knows you can handle it.

i wanted to tell him

2010-09-19T18:36:00.001+08:00

it's like drinking water when you're thirsty.

oh my my

2010-09-17T22:40:00.001+08:00

i ________ by mistake

my mistake

now..

2010-09-09T14:38:00.001+08:00

from california to melbourne!

sometimes you can see stars too

2010-08-29T15:10:00.001+08:00

sometimes lying your back on the pavement in the freezing cold is calming.

woohoo

2010-08-28T01:50:00.001+08:00

from shanghai to melbourne, baby.

i miss the blue blanket tho

2010-08-27T00:36:00.001+08:00

if we were friends, you could get away with me.

i hate watching you drifting apart, and alone there.

but we're not friends.

i couldn't even suggest that you go to haiti or even langkawi for eid.

we're not friends,

but i could lend you my shoulder.

i hope you don't cry though. not that i'm being selfish.

but we're not friends,

so i can't hug you.

if only you could take one step backwards and think this thorough.

you have people who love you so. not me, i don't love you,

i'm not your friend.

no matter how much we tried, we couldn't be friends.

not in this lifetime.

i wish i know a few things about you now.

so i could send anonymous gifts, or letters.

so you'd smile some time.

i wish you'd smile some time.

though we're not friends,

i wish for your happiness.

i pray you'll find your way soon enough.

i remember the last time we met,

and you squeezed my hands

and said that miss your life when we were friends.

at that very moment, i missed it too.

but now we're not.

i may not be your friend, but i care.

so wherever you are, hold on tight.

do you live in a tree?

2010-08-19T21:58:00.001+08:00

i want to be one of the birds.

singing everyday, all day.

go home when darkness falls.

and cuddle with everyone.

avec moi, avec moi

2010-08-16T23:31:00.001+08:00

it's been raining here. cold. it's still winter after all. or so. i'm not so sure.

i wake up when the sun ray's peeking through the blinds. rays on my face. it feels warm, though not quite.

watched the clouds this morning. they were fast. back at home, the clouds were always so still. so crowded.

even the moon seems different. she's almost translucent.

dreams made of skin and flesh. and blood. and juice. i wish they weren't so real. so vivid. it's hard to get them out of my mind. i also had another one, with you in it. you were at my place (yes, again. and how odd). i remember each detail. each gesture.

and i have eleven red things on my desk now.

dépaysement

2010-08-09T20:29:00.002+08:00

it's really personal =)

hedonic treadmill

2010-07-30T03:51:00.001+08:00

isn't it odd?

there's almost always a term for every single thought/feeling/condition we have.

on another note, i'm almost done packing. like 90% done. excited about today and wednesday. sort of. nervous. scared too. not much for sunday, but hopefully things will get better. worried about a bunny. in love with intangible ideas of of the bunny though. how unlikely, but yeah. will be driving in an hour.

the moon beams tonight

2010-07-24T01:33:00.001+08:00

You get a strange feeling when you're about to leave a place, I told him, like you'll not only miss the people you love but you'll miss the person you are now at this time and this place, because you'll never be this way ever again.
— Reading Lolita in Tehran, by Azar Nafisi

a bowl of cherries

2010-07-21T10:58:00.002+08:00

he wrote me an edible poem.

which was really sweet.

cafe au lait

2010-07-05T17:20:00.001+08:00

mummy, don't try to be funny.

dangling so sweetly there

2010-06-29T21:29:00.001+08:00

there was this guy. he used to call me lisa.

everyday i corrected him.

"'i'm aishah," i'd say.

but he would just stare at me blankly.

i was annoyed at first, but then, i got used to it.

whenever he said "hey lisa," i'd smile back.

i'm missing something. but i'm not sure what it is.

do you know why?

2010-06-25T12:33:00.002+08:00

you're seeing the light maybe because you've been in the darkness. people like me, we don't see the light as light, so to say. because the light, it's always been there. we wouldn't know the difference. consider yourself lucky, love.

so let the sun shine

2010-06-17T00:37:00.002+08:00

drinking coke

thoughts of you

cough syrup

dreamless night

soaking

in the sun

every morning

yearning

rolls and rolls

of films

make way

for happiness

just

don't blame love, love.

trying to

2010-06-11T17:19:00.001+08:00

reach

lollipop and crisp

2010-05-31T07:52:00.003+08:00

the smell of cigarette

on white quilt

misty rain at three

in the morning

birds chirp here

just not as merry

the cat's meows

2010-05-27T21:58:00.002+08:00

it's hard to wake up

when you're not sleeping.

was talking about God with fairuz the other day when a cat suddenly came to us and started sniffing me. and then she started to lick my face. annoyed and amazed i asked, did god send you to me, sayang? the cat meow-ed.

i burst.

amor fati

2010-05-25T18:05:00.001+08:00

songs on the radio are mocking me.

forgiveness on a buttered toast

2010-05-21T07:59:00.001+08:00

they began to fret about God's exact location.

things to do today:

2010-04-24T03:27:00.001+08:00

1. get up

2. survive

3. go to bed

words lost in midair

2010-04-17T17:47:00.001+08:00

i miss laughing until our cheeks hurt
i miss dancing without the music on
i miss crying hysterically and not knowing why
i miss reading in the bathtub with you
i miss midnight walks in the park with you
i miss our cookie-baking session
i miss doing each other's nails
i miss going to the drug store with you
i miss buying 20 undies with you

i miss you, bubble gum pop.

torn

2010-04-17T15:56:00.000+08:00

it's still tea time all the time now. the air stood still, still.

went shopping with leya the other day. she bought the biggest red samsonite there. i got myself a hat. we shared a banana split. mom and dad's anniversary today. their 27th.

packing my life in a suitcase today, leya text me early this morning.

we're going out today, mommy said as she tickled my right foot to wake me up.(we, means she and dad)

the beach was crowded at 3 in the afternoon. starbucks was full with people dressed in black slacks and levi's, and hippies with macbooks. walking advertisements everywhere. (yes, i'm now at starbucks in shortest shorts i have and bikini top, white tunic top, and sunblock, and yes, with a mac)

chuck, or his alter ego said, You're not your job. You're not how much money you have in the bank. You're not the car you drive. You're not the contents of your wallet. You're not your fucking khakis. You're the all-singing, all-dancing crap of the world.

but do we buy that?

how about tea and scones on some late afternoon, love?

everyone's eating ginger plum pork chops i cook

2010-02-10T02:02:00.001+08:00

s: i want to eat like a pig with you

t: yes, we must

Charlotte says:

2010-02-05T15:12:00.001+08:00

Let's never come here again because it will never be as much fun.

do you see us?

2010-02-05T13:37:00.001+08:00

people who are lost

how did we get lost?

people who are found

how do we be found again?

interlude

2010-02-02T17:43:00.001+08:00

if we met tomorrow for the very first time.

the prof said:

2010-01-30T22:22:00.001+08:00

"invest in other people's emotional account"

the ferret with the cherry pie hat didn't buy the idea. so he left.

maybe because people are such delicate creatures.

but lili said: you know, like, we'd rather spill our guts out to a total stranger than to a lover, because, you know, a stranger has never hurt or deceived us. and, we'd probably never see him/her ever again. no feelings. no agendas.

sing me a love song, and you might get a lolly, love.

devour the pain, love

2010-01-25T14:16:00.001+08:00

the sky was pouring

as we were pouring our hearts out

wind blowing wildly, madly

thoughts wandering aimlessly

window crashing

did we crash?

white china shattering on the floor

and hearts, too.

silent talk

2010-01-23T02:25:00.001+08:00

twenty-seven millions souls

lingering around

scattered all over

how do we choose

when we can't see any?

do you see me, inside out, love? (do you have a soul? do i?)

do you hear the music in my head sometimes, love?

i long to be myself again, if i may.

is it lonely?

is it lovely?

at the funeral

2010-01-22T02:47:00.001+08:00

I've got to tell you
how I love you always
I think of it on grey
mornings with death

in my mouth the tea
is never hot enough
then and the cigarette
dry the maroon robe

chills me I need you
and look out the window
at the noiseless snow

At night on the dock
the buses glow like
clouds and I am lonely
thinking of flutes

I miss you always
when I go to the beach
the sand is wet with
tears that seem mine

although I never weep
and hold you in my
heart with a very real
humor you'd be proud of

the parking lot is
crowded and I stand
rattling my keys the car
is empty as a bicycle

what are you doing now
where did you eat your
lunch and were there
lots of anchovies it

is difficult to think
of you without me in
the sentence you depress
me when you are alone

Last night the stars
were numerous and today
snow is their calling
card I'll not be cordial

there is nothing that
distracts me music is
only a crossword puzzle
do you know how it is

when you are the only
passenger if there is a
place further from me
I beg you do not go

Frank O'Hara

anywhere you are..

2010-01-10T00:13:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry

i just found out

it's been such hell

i wish you well

i'm sorry i wasn't there

when you needed me the most

i wish i could make it up to you

i can't love you

like before

but i do

love you

still

it'll past

it will turn into dust.

hi, bye, till then

2010-01-09T23:22:00.002+08:00

god, i've never seen you sober
well, hello there

hello hello

it's been years
things been crazy

we went crazy

but we're alright now

i don't know

he missed you

but he's alright now

yeah, we are all alright now

i wish i can hug everyone now

me too

farewell hug

but we've just met

but we're going away too

oh my my

i know

you're still sad

but alright

alright

in the rain, chasing the rain

2010-01-02T23:09:00.005+08:00

s: i'm on my way home

t: you chased the wain away

cos ma wished for the rain to calm down for me

oh no i didn't!

he said:

2009-12-24T17:51:00.001+08:00

"the best things come from nowhere."

well darling, i don't know.

i don't believe in magic.

i don't believe in fairy tales.

i don't believe in anything.

but i'd like to.

a change of air.

the morrow's sorrow

2009-12-02T17:20:00.003+08:00

we wait

for april

for birthdays

for christmas

for deepavali

for easter

for father's day

for halloween

for labour day

for mother's day

for pi's day

for raya

for thanksgiving

for valentines

for tomorrow

to say our thanks

to apologize

to see fireworks

to give presents

to wear that red dress

to say a little prayer

to say that three words

to dine a little fancier

to buy momma flowers

to eat turkey and ketupat

to fly a kite

to be nice

lonely creatures we are

just, why not today?

goodnight, love

2009-12-01T16:50:00.000+08:00

mistakes you haven't done

are peaches

the smell of dying roses

on a rainy day

flickering lights

reoccurring dreams

and as tempting as

all forbidden things are

sitting by the pond, with a glass of rose

2009-11-17T14:17:00.002+08:00

overheard yesterday: she's god's problem now.

tea time all the time now

2009-11-16T10:10:00.001+08:00

I'm a Little Teapot

I'm a little teapot
Short and stout
Here is my handle
Here is my spout

When I get all steamed up
Hear me shout:
Tip me over
and pour me out!

George Harry Sanders and Clarence Kelley

oh god

2009-11-11T15:47:00.000+08:00

T_T

it's still raining

2009-11-05T01:08:00.001+08:00

that day.
sinking hearts.
singing cicadas.

make way.

silent.
vibration.

oh.
so.
subtle.

sank.

bitchy bunnies tonight!

2009-10-23T04:01:00.001+08:00

d: we can't make everyone's happy
s: if not happy, then maybe just, at peace
d: some people can't get over things easily
s: letting go is always hard
d: we got to be tough a little
s: you mean a little bitchy?
d: bitches always look tough
s: uh huh
d: but really
s: i'm ruthless enough i think
d: if you really are, you won't think about it
s: ice cream?
d: i'd love to
s: i love you like i love rainy days
d: i love you like i love hot coffee
s: on rainy nights!
d: yes, love
s: see you tonight, dear
d: see you, deer

it lingers

2009-10-22T17:30:00.007+08:00

i was 17.
you were 17.
we were happy.
picture was taken while
we were dancing
to music
in our head.
or maybe gackt.
i miss doing crazy things
with you.
i miss doing nothing
with you.

i miss you, g.

miss you much

2009-10-18T22:11:00.001+08:00

T_T

because i had cherry pie today

2009-10-17T04:30:00.000+08:00

the opposite of mellow yellow
and dreamy blue is just
a box of white candy.
dandy candy.
the birds will only sing
happy songs for you.
and i promise
you won't notice.

i'll be
traceless.

(in a good way).

one late afternoon:

2009-10-09T00:08:00.003+08:00

you know those people you keep in your pockets?
you're in my jacket's breast pocket
i feel like i'm losing them
i'm in your heart you can't lose me
aww sugar-coated lips you are

you don't even use speed dial
so you're not my speed dial no. 2
but you are mine!
ok i'll learn

raya panties(and boxers)

2009-09-23T23:13:00.003+08:00

i hope everyone wore their green undies last sunday. f told me she felt giddy knowing that 7 of us were wearing them on the same day. about 6.45a.m. (i checked) xD and on friday, somebody even reminded ALL of us to wash them before we wear them.

today's the fourth day and the chocolate moist cake i baked early this morning is all gone.

m sent me excuse me, i think i've got a heartache by cake. i think it's because he didn't get any boxer this year. we DO keep it for you. don't sulk mr. birdie, you'll be getting not one, but TWO this coming christmas. well, that's if you come back and give ALL of us some love you owe.

love love love.

funny bunnies (iii)

2009-09-15T05:49:00.008+08:00

s: my heart gets bitter
h: put some salt
(salt on open wound, love?)

j: why not?
s: because you aren't really
j: i am today
s: you will not tomorrow

j: i think s liked you more than anyone else
s: HA HA
j: he did try his best
s: and failed miserably
j: i come second
s: bun, do you wish we're not friends?
j: sometimes
s: ...
j: so we can be something else
s: like what?
j: i wish we're psychic duo
s: i don't want you to know everything about me
j: but i think i do
s: and i don't want to know everything about you
j: but you do

s: jujube
t: why?

t: eeeeeeeeeee
s: eeeeeeeeeee

w: tiger wanna come
s: eeeeee
w: hee
s: bring my blue thing
w: i'll wear it
s: eeeeeeeee
[ah.. (old), weird, good times]

oh jujubes

2009-09-14T08:28:00.001+08:00

i decided that i'm normal. because once upon a time (or do you still do it, candy?) t and i used to do this one anal thing that i thought not normal for a 5 year old.

i think we could even be friends if we meet 17 years ago. though i don't talk to strangers, i guess we could play (or arrange candies xD) without talking. omg. or build sandcastles!