How to responsibly sabotage myself? 

Stay hydrated. Wear sunscreen. Love with all your might. Give more than you take. Sleep less. Read all the books. Get up three hours before sunrise. Meditate. Work hard. Learn Greek. Pay attention. Send thank you notes. Listen to Bach sometime. Take naps. Always have a pen with you. Eat spinach. Keep your private life private.  

I want to live off the grid.

One day you'll catch yourself feeling happy for strangers. That's the starting point. You'll want the same thing for Putin, Assad, and yourself. Yes, you want flowers in the garden, soft scramble eggs with caviar for breakfast, a clear conscience, and a good night sleep. You think, maybe if people are content we wouldn't hurt one another. Maybe we would focus on more important things. Maybe we would love generously. 

It's just a couple of lightyears away.